2 Months... going Primal

Well it has been a little over two months since I (well we really since the family is also going with me) started this journey.  I feel so much better then I have in years.  I weigh less then I did when Sofia was born.  I am starting to get back the range of motion that I had lost in the last few years.  I have let go of 30+ pounds in the last two months.  The journey has been surprisingly easy.  There have been a few emotional bumps in the road.  The bumps are not unexpected considering that I eat emotionally and usually use sugar and carbohydrates to feed the emotional black hole.  It has been interesting learning how to refrain from mindless eating.  To learn to eat when I am hungry and stop when I am full.  Do I always meet this expectation ... Well no but I do stop myself and recognize when I am eating mindlessly. 

The last two months have been wrought with stress in life and work.  I am totally surprised at the fact that I have not wavered from my journey.  I have continued to read and learn for this journey.  As I started this journey for the umpteenth time I knew that I had to find a way of eating that resonated with my on a deep level.  I started 2 months ago on the low carb routine.  I knew that in the past it had allowed me to lose weight quickly.  I also knew that it was very difficult for my to stay on for an extended period of time.  I also knew that I had to get and keep my blood sugar low.  Eliminating carbs is the only way I know to lower the blood sugar levels.  Just about everything you read about weight loss comes back to controlling your blood sugar.  On my road to healthy living I stumbled across something that really makes sense to me.  Primal Blueprint is a way of life that supports health.  While we had been eating low carb for a month when I found the Primal way of life it still has taken some time to transition to a full on Primal life.  We still have not gotten the Primal Exercise part down yet.

Here is what I have found:  It is very easy to stick with.  I feel great and lose weight effortlessly.  The mind fog is gone.  I have tons of energy.  In other words I love this new life.  I feel confident for the first time in my life that I will be able to get to my goal weight and stay there. 

Going Primal has been the best thing I have ever done for myself and my family.  I have my fasting blood sugar under 95 on average and my 2 hour blood sugar in the low 80's.  Don't get me wrong, my blood sugar was never too high, my fasting blood sugar was 110 and 2 hour was  in the high 90's.  But as you can see the numbers were in the pre-diabetic range.  These higher sugar levels also slow weight loss and cause a raise in triglycerides.  I go in next week for a full blood panel to see how everything else is doing. 

and the journey continues...

Emotional

Well I have been remiss the last couple of weeks about posting here.  It seems life gets busy this time of year.  this last week has been an extremely emotional week for me.  I seem to have struggled every day to "keep" my composer.  Everything seemed to upset me. It does not help that it is that time that every emotion is on steroids and the control button is broke.   I have had so many things running through my head that I wanted to blog here but by time I get home from work help with dinner, play with the daughter, get to bed... I am passing out on the couch myself with not a coherent thought in my head.  Somedays I wonder how I could manufacture some more time.  I don't feel unorganized just to much to do.  Of course I bring it on myself most of the time.  I get these ideas of things I want to do and I get started on a new project with out finishing the hundred other things I want to get done.  I used to laugh at old boss I had and dubbed it the bright shiny object theory.  Now I am living it.  Oh well is to late to call it baby brain?

The emotions I feel when I become hypersensitive are so strong that sometimes I think to myself " who is this person".  But it is not just the emotions in my life that become hypersensitive it is EVERYTHING!  Everything becomes the largest mountain and completely unbearable.  I know that these things irritate me everyday but normally I am able to look past it.

I was doing well to control these hypersensitive times but the last few months they have escalated again to the point of making my days extremely draining.  While they usually last a few days, of late they have been here for a week or more.

As sit here today after on of the worst weeks I have had in recent memory I wonder how I can stem the tide of tears.  I know that in a day or two it will be over and life will resume to the normal.  But I am exhausted from the fight.  I could sleep for days....

I know that most don't understand what or why.  I don't have the energy to explain it anymore.  I have to wonder what the relief will be for me.