So here I sit almost 2 months into my journey... and I have stalled. I am not sure why. I have been very careful with my eating. A little lax on my water drinking but still drinking water. I have been drinking a little more coffee then I should. I have been under much more stress the last two weeks. Stalling is the most frustrating thing to work through. In walks the emotional side of eating better.
That little devil sits on my shoulder whispering to me... Go ahead eat the donut, cookie, sandwich, blah blah blah, What have you got to lose... Your not losing now so what difference will it make? You have to hear him... He is relentless. It takes every ounce of strength I have to resist. I ask my self why are you resisting. Why do I have to resist something? Is there something wrong with me? I know I am not hungry when I "crave" something that is not on my eating plan. I have managed to stay on plan very well but the internal struggle continues and I get cranky. My head hurts and all I want to so is sleep.
My head knows that I just have to keep going. I wish that little devil would shut up for a while. He seems to prey on my mind when I am tired and stressed. He knows every button to press and he usually wins. Not this time... Not this time... Not this time... I will keep eating the right foods and doing the right things.
Sheryl, you know that you can eat anything you want! You also know that your wants have changed. Seems like a parts conflict, part of me wants a while part of me wants b. Each part has an intention for you, for your good. Yet are in conflict with each other.
ReplyDeleteMike,
ReplyDeleteI don't like parts.. I know whose talking... I have to find the stillness that has been missing for the last few months to quiet the monkey. I know that I can not "medicate" the mind into quietness with food any longer. Sometimes that chatter is just gets to be too much and I have to vent.