The Beginning

As I sit here writing this I am starting a new chapter in my life.  A chapter in a book that I have tried to write many many times before.  Unlike other times I have started to write this chapter I have finally reached the point where it is no longer a should but a MUST.  I realized about a week ago how horrible I feel all the time. Run down and no energy.  I spent some time and took a good long look in the mirror and really did not like what I saw.  


As I studied myself in the mirror and really looked at how fat I had become I wondered if that is what others see when they look at me.  I have decided that I can not live like this any longer.  So here is the beginning of the rest of my life.  It reminds of one of my favorite songs... Unwritten "Drench yourself in words unspoken, Live your life with arms wide open, To the years where your book begins, The rest is still unwritten"  The rest of my life is unwritten and I intend to live a LONG and HEALTHY life.  


So in effort to be full on real I will be laying out my progress here.  But in order to have progress you have to have a starting point.  My starting point is today and I currently weigh 307 pounds.  My goal is to weigh 150 pounds when I am all done.  More over I want to be able to run with Sofia.  I want to be able to jump.  I want to be able to get down on the ground and be able to get back up easily.  I want to be able to go hiking.  I want to be able to ride the rides at Disneyland with her.  I want to live to see her graduate, get married, have kids and be happy!


There are many many things I have to work on but one of the biggest things I have to do is be honest and accountable to myself.  I will post weekly my new weight up or down.  As embarrassed and humiliated as I am by how much I weigh now, I am equally determined to successfully live my life healthy and happy.  


This is not a going to be a short journey.  This journey will last a lifetime.